Hi all, i just stumbled in to this wonderful newsgroup today. I would like to present what I see as a personality problem for myself.

1) I seem to accomplish anything only when there is no more time left. till then I do not want to do a task. Ever since I remember I have always worried that I should do the "perfect" job, so I never attempt to try to do anything in a planned way. Until time runs out, at which point I do not have to worry about being perfect, and I land up mostly succeeding well the things I HAVE to do).

I was above-average to good in academics, but for example if there was an exam the next day I would concentrate extremely well in short bursts of 1 hr late in the night folowed by long breaks, but cover what most of my colleagues would do gradually from evening. There would be no planned study at any stage until exam eve, only haphazard studying. Somehow this has got me through, and maybe I would have benn a better accomplished person if I never had the inhibition of being vaguely obsessed with perfection.

Another related manifestation of this I think is I undergo mild to moderate panic whenever I encounter an unknown situation in the job. My brain goes blank and it is a if I am floating in free space for a few minutes. I get urge to go to the bathroom at these times to feel better. I eventually complete tasks somehow, but after a lot of stress and unpleasantness within me that others can't see. I just assume I can't solve the new problem and somehow I will fail majorly. I have presently lot of time on my hands and I can easily complete a technical certification. I have ordered all the books from amazon.com but do not have the will to open them for fear of finding out the things I don't know (but I should know) for doing my job. In the past also I have done this quite a lot i.e buy books and not do anything else - as if the act of buying the book was an end in itself.

One more thing is I have severe stage fright when in front of an audience or group. I have given up trying. recently I went to a toastmasters club intro session here at my job, but could not continue for fear of knowing (and letting others know) how bad I am. I am at ease among friends and even strangers as long as I am talking to them one-on-one.

On the other hand the image I usually project with others is of a confident person who knows a lot! and very particulr that I am seen in that way. I am most honest with my wife, but even she does not see the inward panic/fear of unknown/fear of failing that is triggered within me since i manage to hide it from her.

My own summary is fear of unknown and perfectionism, a combination of both resulting in procrastination of learning anything new (atleast professionally) until there is no more rope/hope.

I sure don;t consider myself to be a mental freak or anything like that but consider myself overall as a normal person with a normal life, except with personality flaw(s) described above.

A few facts about me that may or maynot be relevant to homeopathic diagnosis.

*Only son only child

*good academics - 2 masters degrees - no major pressure from parents to be a high achiever. Mother was more anxious that I should do well.

*good health overall no major dieases or surgery .I usually get a major setback like viral flu,gastro etc once every 2-3 years cycle always around Dec/Jan/February, with no problems inbetween.

* I need a lot of sleep 8-10 hrs, but i get up at the slightest prompting

* I sometimes remember dreams, mostly I appear as a mediocre person in these dreams who does not succeed much. For example I remember dreams of playing tennis with another person, with my side of the court about 100 feet below the other side! Or i am sitting in an exam, and I don't know a thing.

*I have no special preference to hot or cold drinks, but gulp down cold drinks (i belive such things matter to diagnosis..!)

* I prefer hot weather to cold weather

* I was not a morning person but slept late. Nowadays I am not a late person either and get tired by 10.00pm

* I wear prescription glasses.

* I tire mentally and physically very fast during those days when there is lot of work
that I don;t like to do (job). Even generally I do not consider myself to be full of energy physically speaking.

* I love spending time doing gardening,doing projects at home.

* I believe in God and some kind of formal religion.

Thanks very much for listening, and apologise I may or may not have said the relevant things. Could this esteemed group tell me if there is something in Hoemeopathy that can help me be a better person than I am right now.

Please do ask me very specific questions and i would be most glad to answer.

Thanks!
RogR

Sounds like Lycopodium to me what do others think!

Cara ©1997 Miccant Ltd
Complete - Mentals
FEAR undertaking anything enterprise, a new (4)
1 cupr, 1 lyc, 1 plb, 2 sil

LYCOPODIUM!

Agree completely, as its only mentals, actors are often lyc, so stagefrigth is a lead here. But would had more body symp, as mentals can be interpreted, both by the patient and the homeopat, and lead to deception, wrong remedie, would have liked to get it confirmed by bodysymptomes.

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Homeopat MNNH Geir E.T. Marcussen
email: getm@eunet.no
http://www.homeopati.no

Hello all,

Thanks much for all your replies. I am happily surprised all posters so far agree on a single solution!

However, question: why LYCOPODIUM?? When i checked on the web for Lycopodium the general symptoms it treats seems to have NOTHING to do with my condition at all?! Is there something I am missing?

If you don't mind, may I please request you all to get into my case a little more ? GM says he need more information about physical symptoms. I am not very familiar with the homeo approach, I just wrote some details in line similar to other posters presenting cases. So. Please ask, so you (and I) can help me better!

I thank all who responded, and please do throw more light on my questions.

Thanks!

Rogr take a look at other posts to see what is required. Basically, do you get any physical symptoms or sensations with you anxiety? If so describe them.
More generally, what shape is your body in? Anything that troubles you?

Hi Anna,
When in (what i call mild, camaflouged) panic:

I feel my heart sometimes thump but mostly running faster. I am restless, I shake (vibrate) my legs. Sit upright at seats edge when alone. (But If someone around, I probably would have sat back to indicate I am relaxed) Immediate Urge to go to the bathroom. big job helps on rare occasions . Fumbling through books,manuals notes. Phones ringing at this time startles me and I pick up with a fear of dread. tendency to walk faster in a shuffle or hurry compared to when I am relaxed. I feel smaller than myself ie., head sinking into my shoulders (or) shoulders in free gravitationless fall if you understand what I mean. Can't feel stomach. (It probably is not so bad in reality since I somehow survive and perform my tasks , but when I write all this down...it does look bad.)

As for my health. My daytoday kind of problems are usually stomach related. Acidity when i eat oily/spicy stuff. nausea and giddiness now and then. Rarely on occasions, vomiting when I have not had enough sleep and eating heavy. I also have a history of motion sickness from childhood. Till 15 yrs old practically everytime I travelled by bus I would nasueate and throwup. It has strangely stopped after this. In 1987 I was in hospital for 2 days with a severe gastro problem. That remains my only hosptalization.

I am 5.5' in good shape. But for a little fat around the belly (1-2inches) I am pretty muscular (not in the weightlifter sense). I used to exercise regularly/play tennis but now its erratic. I have the tendency to put on a few inches if I eat carbohydrates (rice, potatoes etc) for 2 days back to back. BUt extra inches goes away when I cut down. (I know this when buttoning my jeans) I am vegetarian, teetotaller, nonsmoker overall clean habits. (I did the usual private boy thing - fantasizing girls etc and the related physical acts when I was a teenager and past that, but nothing abnormal)

Would you like anything more specific? Thanks for asking!

This indicates petroleum, do you, or did you ever have any skinproblems? If, wher, when, what treatment, wht did it look like?
Any seasicness? nausea from odour of gas, or oil products, exhaust?
Any reactions to garlic, or onions?
Can you work when competlely alone in the house?
Vision, nearsigthed or far? Frecles? Any spots on nails? Any wrong with nails? Any warts?
Any skin problems in the family?

Hi Roger, I discovered that I had fewer panic attacks when I stopped drinking caffenated coke and coffee. And I stay away from all soda now, decaf, diet...it's all garbage. Sometimes I have a decalf coffee with a little caffinated to top it off, to wake me up if I have to drive. It's rare, and I always pay the price, several hours later I have panic attacks and OCD symptons. GM has been helping me. Feel a lot better. Good luck.

I forgot to mention. I do not drink coffee, sometimes tea, rarely decaf at Starbucks. Thanks for the feedback tough.

GM, thanks for your followup I really appreciate. I have no skin problems, a little rough in the knee and elbow area, the usual thing. My nails though have white spots that come and go - right now nothing - and they chip quite easily. My dad has skin problems after he turned 60 he had great complexion in his young years I hear - but the docs diagnosed it as contact dermatitis or something. My son has milk alergy related rashes for which he is under homeo (Dulcamara). It seems to be working wonders for him. I am only presenting my case here since it is anonymous.

No problem with oil exhaust etc. No problem with garlic or onion. No freckles. near sightedness 6.00+ on both eyes.

Thanks for you continued interest!