Hi folks. This board is about the last place I have left to turn so I sure hope it all works.

I've been struggling along for a while with my homeopathy, not seeing anywhere the progress I would like. But the events of 9/11 have sent me off the edge.

I can't turn away from the news, being a journalist and a new junkie. And what I see is not encouraging in the least. Stories about biochemical attack. Los Angeles is the next target (I live in L.A.), and I've been unwell. Days of upset stomach and loose stools along with a burning throat that won't go away. I thought maybe it was the Rescue Remedy I've consumed in quantity but it often gets worse for going outside.

I am really ready to give up on homeopathy. It doesn't seem to be working with the deep seated problems. Panicky, impressionable, easily influenced and hypochondric. It also has done nothing to help me overcome my greatest fear, dying and going to hell. Being raised Cathlolic is great for guilt, and I've been a poor Catholic.

I feel so foolish, 34 years old, unmarried, staying at home playing video games every night while life passes me by as I sit here dreaming about the life I'd like to make for myself. And I wonder if homeopathy ever could fix that or if it's just a huge character flaw, just like my physical flaws.

I wish I could sleep and not worry. I wish I could work and no stray off to surf news sites or get in some quick game play. Most important, I wish I would try as hard as I wish.

Homeopathy has done some wonderful things for me but I feel like it's failing me when I really need it. I wonder if I'm gonna just have to go to the allopath for some happy drugs and dope myself up until the end comes, whenever that is.

If any of you have ideas, I'm listening.

Dear Andy,

I couldn't be clear what exactly is worrying you from your history so that I could suggest a remedy. But I do feel that you're really frustrated. Just not too sure with what. I understand it has been definitely triggered off by the events of 11/9.

Could you tell me whether your looking for an acute prescription or for a constitutional. Then the questions would be different. But I suppose you know that, so I'll ask them anyway. You have probably not got a proper relief from Homoeopathy because the SIMILIMIMUM has not been prescribed for you.

What exactly was your reaction to the event of 11/9?
What make you feel better or worse?
How do you feel in general (physically) eg. Tired, weak, sleepy.

If you are looking for something deeper. then you'll have to give us a homoeopathic history:
What are the "deeper" problems you mention?
Some detail about your craving, aversions, thirst, perspiration, thermal state, sleep, dreams.
Describe yourself and your nature.
What are your realtionships like.
What major emotions do you experience, etc

Warm regards,
doctorleela

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Hi Andy,
Sorry you are feeling so bad.
Many people have needed Aconite after the events of 11th September (including myself)

Give it a try.

It's amazing the frustration that comes out at 2 am.

I would love a constitutional match. I've been trying for years now. If not that, then at least get me through this rough patch.

When 9/11 initially happened I was numb. Much of it was due to the fact that I had been contemplating a trip to the east coast and could have been on one of those planes. Now it's just a growing fear that my city (Los Angeles) is next and it's likely to be biochemical.

What makes me feel worse is the news, which I must learn to shut off. Every article scares the heck out of me. Nothing really makes me feel better, except maybe some company or conversation with others. That usually takes my mind off things for a little while. Unfortunately, I've become so cut off and isolated in recent years I have no support structure.

In general I feel terrible. Tired and weak but unable to sleep due to fear. In general I can't sleep much. I try for cat naps during the day. If I take one I usually wake up with heavy perspiration around my face head and neck.

My stomach has been terribly upset and usually disturbed by anything I eat. This has resulted in several days of diahrea and loose stools, not to mention nause and a lot of acid reflux.

I've had a raw throat for almost a week now. I suspect it's due to the huge amounts of acid reflux. My colds always start in the throat and develop from there, but no cold has developed so I figure it's acid related.

Another problem that's just odd: my tongue feels swollen and my teeth feel very sharp, like they are going to slice it up or something. My tongue is also white, no color at all.

Deeper problems? Well pronounced hypochondria is definitely one of them. As I said in my original rant, fear of dying and eternal damnation is a biggie, probably the biggest.

Cravings: junk food. If I could live on pizza and burgers I'd do it. I don't like rich, complex foods. The simpler the better. Strongest food aversions are onions and celery. I love chocolate. In enough doses it suppresses my appetite. Too much makes me sick.

I get thirsty easily and some times water doesn't do it. Lemon/lime soda like 7Up is often my favorite drink. I sweat heavily on exertion and during sleep. On exertion it's everywhere, during sleep it's around my head and neck. My pillow and the upper part of the mattress cover were stained orange/brown. Really disgusting.

My thermal state is very narrow. I have a very thin range of tolerance. It can easily get too hot or too cold for me and it's often hard to get it just right.

Sleep is screwy, because I work at home, for myself, so there is little discipline there. When I worked for someone else it was easy to make myself go to bed at a certain time and get up at a certain time. Now, forget it.

I rarely dream. If I do, it often falls into three categories: related to something intense I was doing before going to sleep, like playing a computer game (I'll be living the game), it takes disparate elements of my life and puts them together for something really odd (a TV character will be in my former home town and I still live there, for example) or I won't remember it, but then weeks or months later, something will be happening and I remember I dreamt it. Deja Vu, in other words.

I'm a loner. I'm quiet and keep to myself. I don't give away much of anything, unless that person has something I want, even if it's just their presence. Then I open up, perhaps too much. After being dateless for two years I met a fantastic girl and proceeded to scare her off by coming on way too fast and hard. Typical.

I'm made up of odd parts and embarrassed by them all. I'm conservative in many ways and voted for President Bush (and thank God he won) but won't count myself as a Republican because they do have a few idiotic policies I won't abide. Yet whenever I walk into a natural foods store or health food store, I'm scared to death because most folks of that stripe are on the opposite political spectrum and somehow I'm afraid they will figure out who and what I am. Dumb, I know.

I have very few relationships, partially due to my weird likes and tastes. It's hard to find anyone who shares two interests of mine, so the few friends I have are highly compartmentalized. We stick to our one area of commonality and that's it. being embarrassed at my own hypochondria and whininess, I don't open up much for fear of ridicule or dismissal. So I just make it look like nothing is wrong on the outside.

The emotion I experience the most is irritation. People who drive to slow, don't return my calls, can't make up their mind at the sandwich shop, indecision in front of the bank machine, all that.Hurry up and move! I hate restriction. I don't like to be crowded so I don't like night clubs or planes or busy malls.

Have fun with all that. If you need more just ask. I'm on the verge of throwing my hands up and saying homeopathy has failed, so if you can change my mind I'm all for it.

Andy,

A good suggestion of Aconite has been made, and I would like to differentiate with Arsenic Alb, which I am more inclined towards.
You will have to decide.

Aconite: Ailments from Sudden Shock, Fear of Death, and believes that he will soon die; Restlessness, moving about. Tongue coated white, Intense thirst for cold water , but everything else tastes bitter. UNABLE to bear music, makes him very sad. Generally in a very excitable state.

Arsenic: Fear of death and being left alone. WEAKNESS in the body, feels better with rest. Needs order around him. Restlessness and despair. Wants company. Aggravation at night esp midnight till 2 am. White coating on the tongue, thirsty, desires cold drinks but sips at a time, better with Heat and warm drinks in general. Great religious DESPAIR of SALVATION.

Whichever one you take, please take a DOSE of 1M.

We'll have to work on the constitutional.

Warm regards,
doctorleela

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Andy

I am sorry to see you having so much trouble - especially with the events of sept 11, it has certainly been hard on all of us.

Please report what remedies have been previously tried and with what results and what potencies.

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Well I tried Arsenicum 200. I went to the store before reading here. So far... eh. Still gotta fight off the panics. Amazing how badly I can spiral downward with just a sneeze.

I worked out today, the first time in the gym in ages. I was stiff and couldn't work at my old rate, no surprise, but loved it. Did 30 minutes of cardio and felt great. Carried me through a few hours. Then as I walked up the stairs to the apartment, with each step, the dread increased. It's nuts. I go out and I'm afraid, because being out and about increases my chances for exposure. But I come home and dread takes over me, but I don't know why.

Is there any ending this?

I'm wondering something...

Earlier this week, with my anxiety already elevated, I took a Naja 200 dose. It had been prescribed by someone whom I've been losing faith in. Now I've got a very bad throat that feels raw, sore and tight, hurts more to swallow empty than full, a Naja symptom. I have no cardiac symptoms, but there are all the mental fears I've outlined above and the stomach and intestinal distress. Could this be the Naja? If so, how do I antidote it?

[ 07 October 2001: Message edited by: AndyP ]

Inhale Ammonia..Go here: http://homeoint.org/clarke/index.htm

You can look up antidotes

Well that's a new one. Better do that one in the privacy of my home.

I guess I'll shower after a workout. One of the oddest things about me is if I go running and work up a big sweat, then hit the shower, the place will fill with the smell of ammonia. Something in my sweat does not like the shampoo.