Thank you, Shirley,

you made me feel a lot easier. I will try very hard to change my diet. And I am determined to find a shop where I can buy the foods that I can mentally live and physically grow healthy with. Sorry, I caused you so much work.

I am so much fixed on this low fat idea that I must practice to getting used to being allowed to have the other food again (cheese and even better: peanut butter (!!! - what a perfect idea - I will loooove carefully practicing on this source ...)). I am super scared that any gramm of fat I might eat would go straight on my belly - I am so close to going below 100 Kilos - that would be such a great first achievement for me.

What does the expression "... we are all routing for you ... " mean? I cannot understand it and the translations I find in my dictionaries and also on an internet-dictionary do not make sense to me (they say it means digging something out of the earth). I was embarrassed to ask you when you used the expression the first time but it must be very important or meaningful because you used it a second time.

With all my heart I thank you for all your understanding and your patience with me.

Bettina

Hello Shashi Roy,

I did not mean to be impolite by not addressing and thanking you. I had not seen your message when I typed my last message.

Thank you, too,

- and everyone else who is spending time and thoughts on me and my case.

Bettina

Hi Bettina,

I am all red now. There is not a need for thanking me, Just thank to Homoeopathic Principles and the people who beleive in it which has created a confidence in you about homoeopathy.

I pray to God that all the Homoeopaths are humble and giving.

May be I want to say few other things , but I can't be so open on this international forum.

Good thing is people on this and some other forums try to help people without any financial gain, which gives me a great pleasure.

God Bless All

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Bettina

"we are all routing for you" means that all of us here are cheering you on, on your side and hoping to see you make wonderful progress!

and so I too say "we are all routing for you!!!!!!"

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Ladies and Gentlemen,

HOOOOORAY!!!!
I have lost approximately two pounds (approximately 1 kilo)!!!!!!!!!
I am below 100 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And I am more than happy about this loss. A magic barrier has been crossed. And I am convinced this happened because of your help. If I could, I would send flowers to all of you to say thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you .... (I tried to put a jpg-picture of a flower bouquet in here but it did not work)

And I can proudly announce that yesterday was my first true low-carbohydrate day - the first breakfast without bread. Yes, I summed up all my effort, determination, will; read through this whole thread again and gave it a try.


The fourth week since I have taken Thuja C 200 has passed, so this is my weekly report:

You already know that it was an emotionally and mentally most exhausting and difficult week. Next to all the work here I saw a psychologist for the first time in my life. She already let me know - and I knew this before but it never occurred to me as something that might cause problems - that my brain is constantly working, I am constantly thinking, I cannot find rest. I can hardly get into deep relaxation. Only now I realize that my partner has very often asked me why I worry or think constantly about things that - in his eyes - need no worrying or thinking about? This may also be a symptom for your work about which I have not informed you properly. And I very often asked him how he could just shut out his brain, e.g. come home and not think of work any more?

Starting on Monday I drastically cut down on carbohydrates with almost no problem for lunch and dinner. I am still taking the evening primrose oil capsules. And I am still not drinking any coffee.

There were a few physical peculiarities as well:

While eating I bit my lips twice (I hardly ever to this usually).

Two more aphtaes showed up in my mouth and hurt, one is now hurting less and healing, the other (where I bit my lip) still hurts and burns. Burning is worse with foods that contain acids like tomatoes or Italian salad dressing.

The next one is embarassing, but I want to give you the complete picture: My anus felt sore most of the week, this is lessening now. Also the texture of what shows up has changed to a little softer (needs more wiping because it sticks to the surroundings while exiting so that might have caused the soreness).

I exercised my 30 Minutes on three mornings, Monday through Wednesday. Did not thake the time yesterday. Today I started but had to give up after only 5 minutes because my pulse rate kept going above 140 beats per minute (I was taught it needs to be within 120 and 135 beats per minute in order to effectively and aerobically burn fat). So instead I took the bike to get to work (this takes about 15 Minutes and I left the pulse measuring device at home...).

Now my questions:

I have been taking evening primrose oil for over four weeks now - shall I continue? (I will continue until you instruct me to stop.)

Do you see the Thuja still working or should I proceed to a new remedy?

I am not complaining, I can live without coffe ---- but (I somehow do miss it a bit), do you see a chance that I might some day have it again?

And another Information:
Next week I will try to see my gynecologist to tell her about the suspected PCOS and make her draw the necessary blood tests to confirm by checking the hormones that I am on the right way. I also want to ask her about the size of the cysts in my ovaries. I will not accept hormonal treatment. Maybe this gives us another way of determining and following the physical success of our hard work.

The book (Protein Power) has not arrived, yet.

I am not stepping on the scale for at least seven days from now to be completely sure that I will not see the 100 again.

At the moment I am very happy (and a little proud).

Bettina

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Ladies and Gentlemen,

the most recent development:

I just discovered first very little signs of a possibly approaching menses.

Bettina

Hi Bettina,

Congratulations! It appears that things are moving in the right direction.

Maybe others on the BB will disagree with me, but in my experience, a well selected remedy can last a long time if it's not antidoted. As long as things are changing and you are doing well, I would not repeat the remedy.

I would also stay with the Evening Primrose Oil. Have you been able to find the Udo's Oil to use for your salad dressings?

When everything is stable, you will be able to drink coffee again. In the meantime, for a special treat, when you know you are going to be retaking the remedy, you can have a cup or two the day before.

For the racing mind, homeopathy will help with that, too, since it helps the whole person. However, I would also suggest meditation. A modified transendental meditation is very effective. In the true TM, one takes a class from a guru who gives a mantra (word) specifically suited to the person. What you can do is use a word that you especially feel connected to, and sitting comfortably in a quiet room, keep repeating the word in your mind. When your mind goes to some idea other than the word, just bring it back to the word without judgment. Ideally this would be done for 20 minutes twice daiy, but if you don't have the time, once daily will also work. It has many health benefits in addition to resting the mind. It takes many weeks of practice before it can be done well, so don't get discouraged.

Keep us informed about what's happening with you. The remedy is certainly having a wonderful effect. Thanks to Shashi for coming up with it!

Shirley

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Bettina -

I am so happy for you and sooo very proud!!!

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HI Bettina,

It's been awhile since we've heard from you, so i was just wondering how things were going for you.

Shirley

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Dear Shirley,

thank you so much for caring about me.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

This is my weekly Report. Since I will most probably not have access to the Internet from Friday till Sunday, I decided to hand it in today so you will know that I am still on my way.

It has been five weeks since I took the Thuja C 200.
I am still coffee-free (I am having a cup of black tea every morning instead).
I have been on a low-carb diet for one week now and still am.
I am taking Evening-Primrose-Oil capsules for over five weeks now.
I drink about two liters of plain water or very lightly flavored water per day.

I weigh 98 kg since Saturday morning. That means that I have lost 7 American pounds since I started posting my problem here. My weight has not changed since Saturday.

I started menstruating last Friday and still am. There was pain but it was endurable and survivable. I took no allopathic or homeopathic medication to kill the pain. I discovered that while I am in bed and the pain is bad I rub my lower legs agains each other crosswise - it somehow relieves, at least the tension. I am happy I was able to have a period again. The last real one had occurred at the end of March.

Getting rid of digested material somehow is different, probably due to the decreased amount of fibre that I am consuming now. Stools are either very soft and sticky with no trouble exiting me or, as today and yesterday, very hard and a real pressing pain till they finally exit. I can feel something is waiting to escape but it will not, at least not easily. I am not complaining, just telling.

Other changes: I drink more. I have learnt what thirst feels like and - I could not believe this - I know the feeling 'to be full' and satisfied by food. The craving has vanished. Before this I almost always felt I had to stop eating while I would rather eat more or I would eat till (no more carbohydrates) could be stuffed in but still I would not be satisfied by the food. I only have three meals a day currently and this is completely o.k. for me. Sometimes I snack a teaspoon of salted peanut butter after dinner - more out of pleasure than due to hunger.

Here is one more sympton about me that I have somehow forgotten to state. (It just crossed my mind, I am sorry for being so incomplete in my very first posts.):

I droole while I sleep. There many times are wet spots on my cushion close to where my mouth lay when I wake up and I often can feel it in my face.


The book (Protein Power) has arrived! I am reading and reading. I do have a hard time with the calculations. I live in the metric system, but have to convert every measurement to inches and pounds to be able to use the charts given in the book. My first calculation lead to the result that I have 59% of fat and should weigh only 55 kilos. I would have to loose about half my weight. (This weight goal of 55 kilos is 10 kilos (= 22 Pounds) less than any "normal" weight a German chart would give me, so I will do all the calculations again to find out whether I messed up somewhere.)

As you did not advise differently I have not repeated Thuja.

Is everything still going well in your eyes? Should I take any remedy or just proceed to see and report whatever is happening?

I did not want to interrupt you here when everything with me in my eyes was o.k., but maybe it would be better if I reported by half weeks since I now found out that you were wondering how I was doing? So this is what I will do in the future.

I will come back late in the night (in about three hours) to find out whether something you might have said by then calls for quick action.

We are visiting my parents over the weekend, and we will try to get to the shore of the North Sea to see the sea again.

I thank you all very, very much for your help. I am very, very happy I found you and I am very happy about the way my life is already changing towards the better thanks to your kind assistance.

Bettina

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