I'll do that. Thank you.

Also can you get her to keep a few notes of how she actually feels? It would be handy in future to know if she is tearful or not etc.

I can ask her to do so, but she is quite difficult sometimes and when she is as desperate as she has now been, it is really difficult. Today she told me she is already feeling a little better. She has been very angry lately and very much disturbed by the neighbours - she feels they're trying to disturb her with noises. This is a thing which has been continuing for years and in different flats. She admits that it may be just a delusion but she still gets angry and tells me often about these things which also prevent her concentrating on studies etc.
HLP

Now I know we are on the right track. Nat-m holds emotions in the same way that salt preserves. The old annoyances are finding vent and beginning to be expressed in anger. This is good as it will get them resolved. In a delusion there is no reality check.

Hi,
I'll try to tell you some things that my friend has now told me. (Sorry for my poor english, I try to repeat her words.)
She said that within the first three days after Nat.m.10M she felt heavenly tired and relaxed and some bubbling on the diaphgram, which was a familiar feeling. After a week she said that she was back in the depth. We met then and she started to talk about her environment (that's the word she uses and means the neighbours)and how they don't understand her sexual life. They want to use power and control. She said that everything goes now on the sexual level. The family that mostly disturbs her is the landlord with his wife, child and wife's parents. She sais that every time she goes out some one of that family is there too. And that means control. Now she has got some telephone calls where no one talks and she is sure they are from this family. This is the same thing that happened in her childhood, mother controlled everything. After telling that she remembered that she had been allowed to go out alone but still there is the feeling of someone controlling and telling what to do or not. She thinks that she cannot use enough water at home, that it is forbidden. When I asked if it is true, is there some regulations, she said no, but she has the feeling that she must not use it enough.
She said to be afraid of losing her control, especially after these phonecalls she feels that she could go to this landlord and shout and curse.
She felt that after the last dose her level changed and that people notice it and now want to get her back to the level where they can control her. This reminds her about her mother.
Every time when she sees this landlord's family she feels grief and almost starts to weep. Her brain feels tense because she has to listen so sharply to the environment. She feels that it is insane and thinks that this kind of things happened even in her childhood and her mother succeeded in hiding it from others. She said she is repeating her childhood pattern all the time.
The relationship with her doctor, which happened 1983 or 84 rises now up. That man was sexually overactive and on the second visit he asked her out and they saw a few times. The last time was the worst, she thinks he gave her some medication as she woke up there in the morning and couldn't remember anything. She says she wouldn't have liked to stay overnight and didn't want any sex. After that she once called him and said that she cannot cope with that night and then he told that he thinks she is insane. This was the turning point in relationship with men, all trust went and the feeling that her husband and others thought she is a whore. She says she became thoroughly confused and in disorder. There has been a feeling of shame since. She doesn't accept the concept of a sinful woman, which she thinks came already in childhood. Some relatives obviously talked about it and they were very religious people and strict in that.
This was the first time she ever had talked about this. She is now full of negative feelings and don't want to go anywhere from her home.
We have agreed to meet now once a week which she felt would be a good thing for her as I am the only person who knows so much about her situation and she understands that it is not good to dwell on those black thoughts alone all the time.
This is the story of today. I will be offline for the next few days and will be back on monday in case you have some questions or thoughts about this case.
HLP

use staphysagria c200 one dose now.

Thank you very much GM, I will give it to her tomorrow. I really hope she will get better. It is so sad to see someone living for years in such a gloomy past and she really cannot get out of there without help, and I think homeopathy can be the one to bring her some light and relief.
HLP

Hi again,
here is the follow-up since 8 weeks on Staph.
After the first week my friend got a very bad flu with lot of pain in throat and cough. It took some 10 days to heal and still she has some mucus in her chest which makes her to clear her throat very often. She thinks this mucus is something which she always have had and it is like dirt in herself.
We met in a café last week and she told me that she feels better but the improvement is slow. She talked about her neighbours and how they have managed to manipulate her to fullfil their expectations. She is not satisfied and thinks to move away.
While we were sitting there she was all the time controlling other clients and told me that those and those are staring at her (I didn´t notice anything even when looking around me) also the waiter dropped something close to our table and then she said "this happens all the time when I am near."
She is very rigid in her habits, doesn´t eat anything before noon and don´t use any meat or fish and no salt. She admits that it is some kind of controlling the life. Part of the eating habits is due to her fear of getting the rheuma which her mother had soon after her birth.(There is the guilt of making her mother ill). She herself has also scoliosis.
She is quite haughty and critices other people a lot. Now she has decided to stop her studies as she doesn´t succeed very well. Says that is lack of concentration as she thinks all the time of herself and sees everything through her own life.

This is all for now. Waiting for some ideas to ease her life more.
Thanks in advance.
HLP

[This message has been edited by HLP (edited 04 September 2000).]

Your friend is not insane. She may well just have fears brought on by damage to the cerebellar vestibular system.
Get the old book "Phobia Free" by Dr. Harold Levinson, and read it with her. It is probably in the library.
When noises bother a person, it is generally due to damage to the inner ear.
The Doctor's book will help her through this.

Avoid camphor with Staph because it antidotes.
Also, acidic foods aggravate - though the latter do not antidote.