I have problem with experiencing aggression after i somewhat had a friendship with a girl boxer (not a relationship). we really understand eachother well, but she is rather too aggressive...The problem is that I love her very much, and i feel she cares of me more then other *though not aggressive people* and otherwise *nice* people don't.

It's a bit of a rugh question to ask and I have an ask for advices, coz i feel in a very unconfortable situation, and have no ideas how to cope with it. Both homeopathical and non homeopathical advices are welcome. Please, show understanding, do not tell me find other better people to make friendship with. I dont feel well being aggressive, but i know she is something special for me. It is at the same time impossible to change her, this is narrowly her professian. i feel also ashamed of her behaviour at times, mostly because people react bad about it, and been scared for myself too - ive experienced her angriness on me. And talking is not the best thing we can do esp when she is angry - she barely do not understands me and im afraid she does not like talks much. weve had a bit of a quarrel and i told her shes bad and i dont wanna see her again. though i do not hear her now, i think of her, and i feel i am replacing her like becomeing myself like this. Now i feel sad, but at the same time when we are together i feel dull. Like becoming stupid - her intelectual level is not too high, thought she is not stupid atall. I dont like her friends mostly. she is a controversial person, and very scary. People are afraid of her, but i am not the only one to look for her company. She has some inner charm. I am at a place when I have a much of a competitors for her attention-for friendship, love, etc, while non of my efforts about her are estimated (i may be wrong though) I see how foolish am i and everybody else around, and she just have fun of us all, speaks about everyone to everyone to be ugly, dull, etc. With few -1 or 2 exceptions. You may say this is not fine. May it is not. Lately her behaviour to me turned to be humiliating, so i desided to leave her on her own troubles. But somehow it did not work. And I find other people boring and hypocritical.


She also have bad knees aching, but thats another thing less important now.

I guess this is life, but anyway....

I know this is not a love/relationship/friendship forum, but i like to know how to change the situation, if probably someone have met with something similar in his/her practice or experience. Im not sure to understand her well. And myself too.