Hello,Firstly apologies for a long post but I would be grateful for any
suggestions you may have on the following.
I had my son in May 2003, our only child so far, and we had a difficult
labour (I didn't dilate and we were in labour for 52hrs, eventually had an
emergency caesarean-my son was 10lb 8oz).
There were difficulties following the birth-my son wouldn't sleep for any
longer than 20mins for the first 8months. He was born with a deep "dent"
in his skull and still has osteopathic treatment to relieve the pressure,
which is also partly why he couldn't sleep-but to cut a very long story
short I think I developed some kind of postnatal depression.
I'm very surprised that whilst I'm typing the above I am still angry at the
hospital and upset-to the point of holding back tears-at what I feel my
son went through.

Following the birth I went through a period, for about a year, where I
really couldn't cope, I wanted to scream at my child to sleep, I just wanted
to get away and get some space. I resented my husband hugely as he
really didn't help out much, if at all.

Things are a lot better now and I've used homeopaths, osteopaths and
reflexology-all of which have been a help.

There are times however, usually before or after a period, when similar
symptoms/feelings return and I am keen to try and make these as few as
possible as it’s so terrible.
What happens is that I wake up one morning and I just feel like I don't
want to be there. I want to be able to get up and get dressed and go out
without having to deal with anybody other than me.
At these times I have little or no patience and it takes a herculean effort
to not just scream my head off at people to go away and leave me alone.
The strongest emotion I can describe from these times is the feeling of
needing some space.
I also get extremely heavy and long periods and these times usually
coincide (at most times, since reflexology and homeopathy, the periods
have eased enormously).

I am currently at home with my son and we have a great time but at these
times I have find it a real struggle to get involved in any play time with
him-though I am much improved from going out in the air (not shopping,
somewhere like the park or so, and also better if the weather is rainy or
cold).

When I am feeling this way I am very cold towards my husband and the
smallest things can make me very, disproportionately, angry at him-but I
hold all these emotions inside.
I also have very little self confidence any more-I had much more before I
fell pregnant, and at times I do not want to go out because I feel so
frumpy (I am 2st heavier since having my child but I do intent to lose
that).
I also seem to dwell on things that happened many years ago-old family
arguments and then get annoyed about these things again!
Sorry-this is making me sound like a complete mess isn't it!

Then, and this is the incredible part, suddenly these feelings go!
I wake up and suddenly I don't feel as bad. The confidence issue never
really goes away though, and my energy levels are pretty low generally
but I would be really grateful for any advice on any remedies which you
think may help.
I have taken Sepia and Pulsatilla, both recommended by Homeopaths.
The Sepia helped with my period and PMT for a time, the Pulsatilla I don't
recall having much effect but I did try it again recently and I remember
feeling better.

I'd really be grateful for any replies and will honestly answer any queries.

Thank you