Here is a bit of my worry,
When I went to this lady, who is a classical homeopath, I didn't know what it was about. I was under the impression she was going to give me something that would be a "natural" and healthy alternative to paxil or prozac. She spent about 2 hours w/me asking me questions about my life my situation, fears etc...all of which I found strange, but..whatever..ok. I did my best to answer her questions but was rather unprepared. When she gave me the "remedy" I was surprised, I was expecting a suggestion of a bottle of pills, a dosage to take and a place to get them. Once I had time I decided to do some research on homeopathy and discovered how they come about the remedies and what their purpose is. (I understand the low dosing theory) My concern now though is that their was a lot I didn't talk to her about as I didn't think it was important or relevant, not understanding what she was looking for and all. I also avoided the issues because I'm rather emotional about them and I didn't want to cry in front of her. W/out getting into the case study I she has of me, which is all true, the important details I chose to omit are here in an email I tried to send her but got bounced back, I will copy it here...

" Dear Blank,
This is Josh, I had an appointment with you this past week. I had a chance to look up some information on Homeopathy, some of the info I found is from a man named Tinus smits...the website is here
http://www.tinussmits.nl/
It wasn't until reading that page that I understand now a little more about what homeopathy does. I would like to explain to you now the girlfriend issue if you can do anything to help me with it it would mean the world to me. I fit the carcinosun profile very well but there is another side to me that I feel I need to talk about now that I understand your pursuit. Had I understood what you were looking for with your questions I would have volunteered all this. As a side note, do you use the same carcinosun that he does? From the reading I've done, the type he uses is much more successful.
As I explained I have intense jealousy issues. What I didn't explain is that I have attributed it to my self diagnosed "unlovablity issue", which I have had for many years. My parents never spent much time with me, we have yet to ever in my life go on vacation together and their love always seemed conditional...I attribute that to my desire to perform, to be worthy of someone's love. They never call me, I didn't even live with them for a while, I lived with my grandparents. When I was little I was physically abused for some time by my babysitter, she would beat us, force feed us/not feed us at all, lock us outside, drag us by our hair up and down the steps etc. I told my parents but they didn't believe me and continued to take me there for some time, I would imagine that did something to me but I've yet to figure out what it is. Compounding the feelings I've grown up with is that I've had some girlfriends that have cheated on me, which does not help my jealousy and unlovability, it is aweful. But even my first girlfriend, before anyone ever cheated on me, I was jealous any time she would show other people attention, I want it all for myself, all the time, and I'm threatened with it happens otherwise. I constantly wanted to be alone with her, I have a huge desire for love and displays of affection, I literally can never get enough.... and I handle any type of rejection from a mate very badly. Even though I know I can trust my current girlfriend, it doesn't stop me from inventing rejections in my head and feeling the pain of them, or imagining her cheating on me, or wanting her completely for myself. It has been a huge struggle for me, I have read several books about it which have helped somewhat but I dont' want to be jealous anymore...this relationship is the one, she is a keeper, I don't want to screw it up by being jealous or possessive and I'm constantly in fear of doing that. I'm in fear of her leaving me for not just any one, but any-thing else. This is a huge part of my depression and anxiety, in fact its the most significant part. As well, I explained in breif that we just can't see each other right now, and didn't elaborate on the reasons, but it involves our church. I had to leave for a while, and to make things easier on her I left for another church much farther away. None of my friends from my old church call me, or want to hang out, and there just isn't anyone at the new church to be friends with, as well as the fact that it is over an hour away and I go there 3 times per week....this combined with the jealousy/girlfriend issue is what is making me so depressed lately, its unbearable and making my work situation almost intolerable when normally I was fine working by myself. But now, with all this stuff on my mind, I have too much time to think and I'm ruining myself. Now that I've done some reading on what homeopathy is...is there any way you can help me with this?? It stems back to my childhood and has been aggravated ever since and it seems that this saccharum post carcinosun is good for releasing these feelings that I can't be loved by anyone. I just wanted to fill you in and get your thoughts, as I would deal with the depression and anxiety for the rest of my life just to rid myself of the jealousy/unlovablity...its that hurtful to me. I know they are all intertwined, but now understanding what you goal was, I just want to make sure we are treating the right thing...as I was fine (reasonably)until these recent events that I have typed here came up. Thanks for your time.


I should bring all this up with her shouldn't I?? And in your opinion it is possible that my ommision of these details has led me to an incorrect remedy??


this is all new to me, I will try anything once and I don't believe that modern medicine is looking to cure people, but only to make $$ while masking symptoms and keeping people sick. THough I do believe it has its place. I want homeopathy to work, but I need some relief like now : (


Thank you all once again for you input and time.