Hi Dr Leela, Snoopy and Chris G
Thankyou all for your congrats and kind words. To Dr Leela, I will write asap, to Snoopy and Chris G, I had a hell of a night ( 2 nights ago ) without hardly any sleep, and Chris, I can really understand where you come from when you said that things can get blown out of proportion by the mind ( so to speak ).
I have spoken to partner about this small hiccup, and of course he says Im being rediculous
I spose this has all come about because the idea of having another baby was a totally foreign one to me. Now two years ago, I would have been alright with the matter, but Im in my second year of study, and both my boys are at school, my body image has never been a good one, and I know that Im not the ideal woman ( image wise ) for what my partner would usually go for. Now after this is all said, we have been together for ten years and have two beautiful children and I damm well know that he'd be lost without me. !!!!!!
Yes snoopy, your right, he never usually stays around when the women friends come, and we usually dont socialise outside of the house together as he has different social interests to me, so I dont often see him with other women. This has recently changed and I am now confronted with the physical aspect of him and I and them all being in the same room !!!! I cant just walk away from the small bits of info I get when he comes home, now I have to view thwm as well.
Today, I am feeling slightly better as I have been telling myself that the way I am feeling is natural, and that it isnt anyones fault. I do know that he is not thinking about leaving me etc.
God Damm --- why do we women have to worry so much !!!!
In response to how it makes me feel Snoopy,
Well over the past few days, the feelings have grown from small ones of annoyance to large feelings of jealously, guilt, and anger.
The jealously, is mostly directed towards the fact that this woman has so much in common with my partner and they talk like a house on fire, the guilt is mostly directed towards myself because I have felt like not continuing with the pregnancy and for not being happy with my self image and the anger is directed towards him for not being able to see that I am feeling this way.
After I spoke to him about my dreams, he told me that he thought I was feeling like leaving him for another man and that it was my subconcious trying to point this out to me ???? how does this work when he dreams of me being with another man Im directly asked whether he should be aware of anythiny that may or may not be going on in my life.
All said, I would appreciate any more comments as I try to work through this. I was not sure about taking any remedies while pregnant as I wasnt sure which were safe or not, Maybe I dont even need a remedy -- you tell me.
SImone

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