Dear Ricky,
dear Shirley,
dear Shashi,
Ladies and Gentlemen,

I am back online and I have exciting news to tell: Yesterday evening Ricky allowed me to meet her at an airport close to where I live and where she had to pass through on her way home and we spent more than one hour together. It was super exciting and meeting her made me very happy. She taught me EFT and afterwards discovered some points about me which I did not tell you, yet, and asked me to state them for you on this forum:

- I do not look at people whom I talk to.
- I blush easily.
- I prefer to be cool (meaning 'in a cool surrounding').
- I procrastinate (Ricky, I looked this word up in the dictionary and you were 100% right with it - Unfortunately I do not know how to use this word properly. Do I say 'I procrastinate' or would I have to say 'I procrastinate important tasks'?).
- I am easily annoyed (this has improved a lot since I started posting here).
- I easily loose my temper (this also has improved a lot during the past six months).
- I smile and laugh a lot.
- My periods are more regular but stil not normal (about 40 to 60 days pass between two periods).
- I am an untidy person (not dirty, just untidy). I do not throw things out because they cost money, I have a hard time throwing things away that still work, even though I might not need them any more.
- I am very indecisive (on spending money on things that I personally do not want to buy but my friend decides they are important for our household or the boat or the car. Or I am indescisive on what I would like to have for dinner or on what I should wear. This is not a problem at work, though, there I know how to make professional decisions and I do not hesitate.)
- Ricky asked what I would do If I were president of Germany? The first thing that shot out of me was 'lower taxes' and decrease the mandatory payments for state health and retirement insurance.
- I cry very easily in any situation that involves separation. I cry out of sympathy. (Now I can tell you, Ricky: Even telling you this yesterday was a little hard for me and I had to fight a little not to start crying right at the table. Airports (like train stations) are stressful for me and I had been there an hour before you came and saw some people who were crying. Even though I was thoroughly happy about meeting you I picked up these sad emotions.) I also cry when I am moved about positive happenings like e.g. witnessing when people are saved or when people meet again and are happy to tears about this.
- I hate to be alone.
- When my friend is late in the evenings I worry about him, not about myself and what would happen with me if I was left alone.
- Money is an issue for me. Money to me means security and a good life and I would not want to be without it.
- I am afraid of dying a painful death (we came to this because I told of my fear of flying and being on a boat when the motor fails).
- I said, I do not like the dark.

On my way back home I thought of many things I should have told you, Ricky, but I had been so excited and also happy that we were sitting there together that somehow I did not have all my senses together, I guess.

About the 'not looking at people' I would like to add that I know that this is worse when I have to think hard about what to say. And I thought very hard yesterday evening, believe me. I was especially excited because Ricky is from England. This English English is harder to understand for me than American English and I was told that English people do not like the American accent. So I was a little apprehensive about myself because, of course, I wanted to leave a good impression and wanted at least to use correct words and sentences as far as I could.

About the dark I would now like to add that it would have been more correct if I had said I do not like to be alone in the dark. The dark is ok with my friend by my side and when we are or I am somewhere where I know I am safe. I love to be out in the dark when it is snowing.

At the moment this is all I remember and I am very, very curious about what Ricky will say.

Bettina