From Margaret Tyler: "Think of the work that Dr. Kent is doing in the world today, through his scholars, through the men he has kindled and inspired, and taught, and the men that they, in their turn, have taught and are teaching. Believe it, there is no greatness in the world but through service.
He that would be great among you, let him serve. Teach! Help! Strengthen! Hearten! Inspire! Freely we have received freely give - and of the best that is in you."

But she was a woman and usually women are more "servile" than men (they - genetically -know they have to serve their children!!).

You are not wasting your time, GM, and ,if this can mean something, i would be very sorry if you will leave the BB (but St.Claire is right: it must be your choice).
I hope you can review your decision.