You sound like you need all the support your can get! There's a wonderful kit of 18 remedies for childbirth from Helios Homoepathics in the UK www.helios.co.uk Telephone (+44 892 537 254) and a great self help book to guide you through is Homeopathy for Mother and Baby by Miranda Castro - maybe Amazon.com have it, I'm not sure, but I think that Helios have the book too.