Hi folks. This board is about the last place I have left to turn so I sure hope it all works.

I've been struggling along for a while with my homeopathy, not seeing anywhere the progress I would like. But the events of 9/11 have sent me off the edge.

I can't turn away from the news, being a journalist and a new junkie. And what I see is not encouraging in the least. Stories about biochemical attack. Los Angeles is the next target (I live in L.A.), and I've been unwell. Days of upset stomach and loose stools along with a burning throat that won't go away. I thought maybe it was the Rescue Remedy I've consumed in quantity but it often gets worse for going outside.

I am really ready to give up on homeopathy. It doesn't seem to be working with the deep seated problems. Panicky, impressionable, easily influenced and hypochondric. It also has done nothing to help me overcome my greatest fear, dying and going to hell. Being raised Cathlolic is great for guilt, and I've been a poor Catholic.

I feel so foolish, 34 years old, unmarried, staying at home playing video games every night while life passes me by as I sit here dreaming about the life I'd like to make for myself. And I wonder if homeopathy ever could fix that or if it's just a huge character flaw, just like my physical flaws.

I wish I could sleep and not worry. I wish I could work and no stray off to surf news sites or get in some quick game play. Most important, I wish I would try as hard as I wish.

Homeopathy has done some wonderful things for me but I feel like it's failing me when I really need it. I wonder if I'm gonna just have to go to the allopath for some happy drugs and dope myself up until the end comes, whenever that is.

If any of you have ideas, I'm listening.