Dear Barb,

Whew! My head is spinning! I, too, saw calcarea in your case; I also see Nat-sulph as a "never well since" head injury, and since I see it as a major sycotic miasm remedy, and I see a lot of sycosis in your case, I'm thinking very strongly about nat-sulph.

I'm also thinking about Kali arsenicum as the major agoraphobia/fear of heart attack remedy.

I also thought of carcinosin because it is indicated where there is a multiplicity of symptoms, a multiplicity of etiologies, and where you can see several remedy images in the same person. Plus, there's the fear of authority figures that carc. has and it is a remedy that can easily be confused with phos., which is another remedy I see in you--you describe yourself as throwing yourself into projects but your energy and enthusiasm are quickly diverted to something else--a typical phos trait, along with the desire for sodas and the anxiety.

In short, we have our work cut out for us!

I'm glad you posted your case, you've been suffering so long with so many severe symptoms! And all you've been thinking about is helping others, and never a thought
for yourself! I certainly hope one of us can help you.

You might let us know, of all the things you mentioned, what is bothering you the most right now, and what, if you could get rid of it first, would not only give you the proverbial whole new lease on life, but would, if it could be fished out, drag the most "attachments" along with it? In other words, here's an example: "Well, if I got rid of the diarrhea, I wouldn't have to worry about running to the bathroom in public, and if I didn't have that worry, I'd probably be able to leave the house, and if I were able to leave the house...." You get the idea?

OK, try and get a good night's sleep and pleasant dreams!

Talk to ya later,

Snoopy